Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Anniversary

Lucky I am..
Today
marks
One.
One (plus 24).
Last year someone I once knew,
came to me
in a different
Light.
And this year, despite the unexpected wrong,
it manages to feel
wondrous and right.
This other, special, Love.

I told you about him, Alan, I did.

So many turns to navigate...
No map, ever, for this unexpected road - 
the scenery still flashes silhouettes
that hope-trick my heart,
mannerisms in other people's shrugs, 
such familiarity in their sideways nods -
and new revelations in family ways,
beautiful to see but surprises all the same...

And I still stumble
through dreams that grapple, confront and plead...
We talk, we cry, we laugh
We are old loves & good friends, you and I,
as I tell you about Our Lily and recount for you our days -
Remember how the other night
I cried to you...
Explained,
and wept-confessed,
reminding us both of the choice that I had faced
the river I had to cross

I could
either
die
with
you,
or
keep
on
living

You nodded,
understood.
I saw it
in your gaze, ahead.

So today, it's One, with Adam.
Lily loves him too.
He came to Wings and Beer, with us -
along with so many of those who continue to love
and celebrate,
and long
for
you.

Jake watched football while Lily fed him fries,
by the end of the evening they were sliding into home
on the barroom floor...
Olivia texted from a corner booth, phone for her book.
Sophie is golden and statuesque, so very far from six.
Steve said it was an All Star turnout...
All Star It Was -
Our family, and your ever endearing friends
even Dr. Keohan
still by your side.
Elizabeth brought us Chunkies,
and the Red Vines came from Chris.

Love from all around.
Adam observed from a quieter spot,
perhaps you shared the view.

You
remain part
of
our
everydays.

 And Adam's joined us all. (listen...)